Monday
Went to hospital early in the morning , 7 plus . The doctor came with so much other "student doctor" to just tell my mother about her situation . She need to put a support stand between the esophagus and stomach to make way from the tumor to allow food to pass through . The chemo doctor came to talk to my mother also . My mum looked scared. My god brother came today at 3-4 plus and not long later my mother was pushed to the room to get the support done . During the process , a lot of staff came and ask for consent for their research , i feel that we are just guinea pigs . But we need to go with their research because we cannot afford the large amount of money needed and if we join they will be able to pay a sum for us . After the surgery , mummy came out looking super bad , she was holding her head and looked pissed and uncomfortable . When she reached the ward , she vomited .  

To be or not to be